I had been really focused about our hypnobirth following our sessions
with Karenna from Hope & Honey. I wanted to get into the zone so I arranged
a fear release session with a local hypnobirth practitioner here in Esperance
as we had moved here 6 weeks earlier from Perth. It was great to feel that deep
relaxation I had with Karenna during our classes in Perth and made me feel
empowered to have the birth we wanted.
It was three days before our due date and I had been feeling
niggly all day, I had been productive making a garden junk art piece on my
hands and knees with power tools though so keeping the theme of an active
pregnancy! Pete was working a late shift, about 9.30 pm I went to the bathroom
and thought I saw the mucus plug so called my sister to check, I then sat on
the fit ball watching TV. My sister, who is a nurse, thought it was the plug
and said it could be a week before anything else happened. Pete called about 10
pm to check on me and while I was sat there chatting to him my membranes
released! He came running home and I put on my positive affirmations and sat
relaxing in the living room.
As the hospital is so small here we rang about 10.30 pm to tell
them about the membranes releasing, they said to come back in when the surges
became closer together, I had some surges but nothing too strong, my lower back
was aching so I hopped in the bath. About 12.30 the hospital called me and
asked me to come in to check I actually was in labour. We went in and met the
midwife Sandy who was lovely, she respected all our birthing choices and made
me feel really at ease. After a quick examination she let us go home. We
stopped at the servo to get milk and I had a huge surge, I breathed through it
visualising my blue balloon, the staff at the servo were somewhat alarmed at
this lady in labour buying milk at 1.30 am!
When we got home the surges got really strong. I got in the shower
on all fours and breathed through them, over the next hour they got
increasingly strong and I lost focus to breathe through them. I woke Pete and
got him to take me back to the hospital. Pete kept counting my breathing,
reminding me of the affirmations, and rubbed my back. We arrived back at about
2.30 am Sandy examined me and I was 7cm dilated, I felt lost in the intensity
of the surges and a failure I couldn't breathe through them, I used the gas and
air as I felt I could no longer cope. Over the next 3 hours I crawled around
the floor during surges and did relaxation breathing between them. I then
remember feeling really scared the baby was too big to birth, Pete kept
repeating "you will birth a baby the right size for your body" he was
amazing, he kept me calm, used light touch massage, gave me ice and water and
never left my side.
Although I felt I had cheated by using gas and air, I kept
thinking about the affirmation "I will calmly meet whatever turn my
birthing takes" knowing every surge was closer to meeting my baby.
I seemed to go into a primeval head space and made a lot of noises
during the surges, so much so the day after the birth I still had a sore
throat!! When I hit transition Pete recognised it immediately, I was begging
for morphine and feeling I couldn't go on, I rang my sister who was a gentle
encouragement for not only me but also Pete. The midwife got the morphine
together and Pete told her not to give it to me and that I could do this
without it. I am so glad he had the strength to do that and I think
hypnobirthing gave him the confidence to stay true as much as was possible to
our birth plan.
The birthing room had an amazing birth chair and Sandy suggested I
use it. I then stopped using the gas and air and breathed down as far as was
possible for the next hour. It got really intense though after the hour and I
knew the doctor had been called in. After a further 20 minutes Sandy told Pete
that I had 10 mins or they would need to intervene as they were worried about
the baby. Pete gave me huge encouragement to let go and meet our baby so for 10
mins I put all my energy and focus into meeting our baby.
At 7.30 am Bella came sliding into the world, Sandy put her straight
onto my chest! I then got into the bed and with the cord intact had skin-to-skin
for an hour. She was alert and crawled up to my breast and latched on straight
away. It was an amazing feeling to know I had done it!! We delayed the cord
clamping until it stopped pulsating and I then birthed the placenta.
I did have a second degree tear that had to be repaired and a very
sore throat but apart from that I felt elated. I then had a shower and Pete had
skin-to-skin with Bella for another hour before she was dressed and wrapped.
For the next 48 hours she was the most chilled out baby, I didn't let them
measure her at birth and we waited 3 days to bath and measure her. She knew who
Pete and I were straight away and the beauty of being down here in Esperance is
all the uninterrupted time we have had to bond with our little girl.
Although I wasn't as true to the hypnobirthing principals as I
would like I felt it gave me confidence to meet my birthing day without fear.
It also helped Pete make informed choices for our family during the birth.
Having done the classes with him I felt unconditionally supported and loved
throughout the whole experience, I know Bella is a happy settled little girl
who was birthed in the best way possible.
Thanks for all your knowledge, help and encouragement. Without the
classes I think our birth would have been far more medicalised, so I know Pete,
Bella and I have a lot to be thankful for.
“Becky
– you are amazing and you did such a fabulous job. In no way were you untrue to
the HypnoBirthing principles and you were absolutely not a failure for using
gas and air. There is no failure in birth. HypnoBirthing is all about being
informed, being relaxed and creating a good birth environment. You did all that
so well and I’m so proud of both you and the journey we took together. Sending
big hugs to you and Baby Bella!” Karenna, Hope & Honey
For more information on HypnoBirthing or to book a class with Karenna, click here.
For more information on HypnoBirthing or to book a class with Karenna, click here.
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